ELyssa D. Durant © 2007-2020
Tuesday, October 22, 2019
Wednesday, October 9, 2019
Mental Health Awareness Week
The dark cloud is lifting.
Depression is a bitch. I'm by no means cured. I'll be taking medication for the rest of my life.
I knew it would pass. Sometimes it takes a little magical chemistry. But if you need a second opinion about my care, one of them better be mine.
#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
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Depression is a bitch. I'm by no means cured. I'll be taking medication for the rest of my life.
I knew it would pass. Sometimes it takes a little magical chemistry. But if you need a second opinion about my care, one of them better be mine.
#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
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The call is coming from inside the house!!
Sent all of this to my dad and brothers because they have the copyright privileges if I totally lose it or die. Whichever comes first.
I'm in a huge copyright battle.
Note: one more thing Trump knows nothing about: INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY
What a mockery he's made of US!!
Everyone thinks China is raping us?
DUDE: The call is coming from inside the house
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I'm in a huge copyright battle.
Note: one more thing Trump knows nothing about: INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY
What a mockery he's made of US!!
Everyone thinks China is raping us?
DUDE: The call is coming from inside the house
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Trump’s epic meltdown
Is it awake yet? It's like every day we fall deeper into the abyss.
At this point I use Trump as a litmus test.
And I thought my meltdowns were epic.
Good grief get that man a psych evaluation.
#TrumpMeltdown
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At this point I use Trump as a litmus test.
And I thought my meltdowns were epic.
Good grief get that man a psych evaluation.
#TrumpMeltdown
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Living in the moment... I will always love you ~ The Cure.
I keep smelling candy. I smell caramel suddenly.
I hope I'm not losing my mind. I've been close a couple of times-olfactory hallucinations are the most serious & a sign of psychosis.
I'm pretty sure I'm still sane. I don't know. Maybe I need a second opinion?
#TrumpMeltdown
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I hope I'm not losing my mind. I've been close a couple of times-olfactory hallucinations are the most serious & a sign of psychosis.
I'm pretty sure I'm still sane. I don't know. Maybe I need a second opinion?
#TrumpMeltdown
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Chapter 2 Edited
I still can't fucking sleep. I'm having myoclonic seizures every few minutes and it's so damn uncomfortable. I'm trying really hard not to go to the emergency room.
This country is so fucked.
I'm still thinking about leaving while I still have a chance. I'm pretty sure the wall is meant to keep people from leaving.
I have a friend in Canada who can't gain entry to the US and we joke about getting married so I can just cross the border. We were going to escape to the Bahamas, hide out and go snorkeling but now the Bahamas are gone and somehow climate change became a reality.
I have a few hundred bucks and a passport. I just want to escape.
You don't know the whole story but this has become my theme song.
https://youtu.be/NRtvqT_wMeY
"Are you up in the middle of the night? Like a fire fly drawn to the light. You were there like a blow torch burning.
So tired I couldn't even sleep. Promised myself I wouldn't weep. Only so many secrets I can keep.
It seems no one can help me now, I'm in too deep, there's no way out. This time I have really lead myself astray.
Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile?
How on earth did I get so jaded? Seems life mystery has faded.
I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows!!
Here I am just drowning in the pain with a ticket for a runaway train!!
Everything seems cut and dry. Day and night, Earth and sky.
Somehow I just don't believe it.
Runaway train never going back. Run away on a one way track. It seems I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there.
I bought a ticket on a runaway train. Like a madman laughing in the rain.
Run away cuz it always seems the same."
Who do I talk to now that you're gone??
And here come the tears. My god this is painful. And some times I feel like I'm just holding on by a thread. And my friend would say, "as long as you're still holding on."
He's gone too. My god this hurts. I can't have my body fail at the same time as my mind.
Time to dry my tears, pick myself up. Brush off a little dust and put my game face on.
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This country is so fucked.
I'm still thinking about leaving while I still have a chance. I'm pretty sure the wall is meant to keep people from leaving.
I have a friend in Canada who can't gain entry to the US and we joke about getting married so I can just cross the border. We were going to escape to the Bahamas, hide out and go snorkeling but now the Bahamas are gone and somehow climate change became a reality.
I have a few hundred bucks and a passport. I just want to escape.
You don't know the whole story but this has become my theme song.
https://youtu.be/NRtvqT_wMeY
"Are you up in the middle of the night? Like a fire fly drawn to the light. You were there like a blow torch burning.
So tired I couldn't even sleep. Promised myself I wouldn't weep. Only so many secrets I can keep.
It seems no one can help me now, I'm in too deep, there's no way out. This time I have really lead myself astray.
Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile?
How on earth did I get so jaded? Seems life mystery has faded.
I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows!!
Here I am just drowning in the pain with a ticket for a runaway train!!
Everything seems cut and dry. Day and night, Earth and sky.
Somehow I just don't believe it.
Runaway train never going back. Run away on a one way track. It seems I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there.
I bought a ticket on a runaway train. Like a madman laughing in the rain.
Run away cuz it always seems the same."
Who do I talk to now that you're gone??
And here come the tears. My god this is painful. And some times I feel like I'm just holding on by a thread. And my friend would say, "as long as you're still holding on."
He's gone too. My god this hurts. I can't have my body fail at the same time as my mind.
Time to dry my tears, pick myself up. Brush off a little dust and put my game face on.
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Chapter 2
You don't know the whole story but this has become my theme song.
https://youtu.be/NRtvqT_wMeY
"Are you up in the middle of the night? Like a fire fly drawn to the light. You were there like a blow torch burning.
So tired I couldn't even sleep. Promised myself I wouldn't weep. Only so many secrets I can keep.
It seems no one can help me now, I'm in too deep, there's no way out. This time I have really lead myself astray.
Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile?
How on earth did I get so jaded? Seems life mystery has faded.
I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows!!
Here I am just drowning in the pain with a ticket for a runaway train!!
Everything seems cut and dry. Day and night, Earth and sky.
Somehow I just don't believe it.
Runaway train never going back. Run away on a one way track. It seems I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there.
I bought a ticket on a runaway train. Like a madman laughing in the rain.
Run away cuz it always seems the same."
Who do I talk to now that you're gone??
And here come the tears. My god this is painful. And some times I feel like I'm just holding on by a thread. And my friend would say, "as long as you're still holding on."
He's gone too. My god this hurts. I can't have my body fail at the same time as my mind.
Time to dry my tears, pick myself up. Brush off a little dust and put my game face on.
Sent from my iPhone
https://youtu.be/NRtvqT_wMeY
"Are you up in the middle of the night? Like a fire fly drawn to the light. You were there like a blow torch burning.
So tired I couldn't even sleep. Promised myself I wouldn't weep. Only so many secrets I can keep.
It seems no one can help me now, I'm in too deep, there's no way out. This time I have really lead myself astray.
Can you help me remember how to smile? Make it somehow all seem worthwhile?
How on earth did I get so jaded? Seems life mystery has faded.
I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows!!
Here I am just drowning in the pain with a ticket for a runaway train!!
Everything seems cut and dry. Day and night, Earth and sky.
Somehow I just don't believe it.
Runaway train never going back. Run away on a one way track. It seems I should be getting somewhere. Somehow I'm neither here nor there.
I bought a ticket on a runaway train. Like a madman laughing in the rain.
Run away cuz it always seems the same."
Who do I talk to now that you're gone??
And here come the tears. My god this is painful. And some times I feel like I'm just holding on by a thread. And my friend would say, "as long as you're still holding on."
He's gone too. My god this hurts. I can't have my body fail at the same time as my mind.
Time to dry my tears, pick myself up. Brush off a little dust and put my game face on.
Sent from my iPhone
What doesn’t kill you...
October something... 2019
I still can't fucking sleep. I'm having myoclonic seizures every few minutes and it's so damn uncomfortable. I'm trying really hard not to go to the emergency room.
This country is so fucked.
I'm still thinking about leaving while I still have a chance. I'm pretty sure the wall is meant to keep people from leaving.
I have a few dollars and a passport. I just want to escape.
I still can't fucking sleep. I'm having myoclonic seizures every few minutes and it's so damn uncomfortable. I'm trying really hard not to go to the emergency room.
This country is so fucked.
I'm still thinking about leaving while I still have a chance. I'm pretty sure the wall is meant to keep people from leaving.
I have a few dollars and a passport. I just want to escape.
Thursday, October 3, 2019
DailyDDoSe ©️ October 3, 2020
DailyDDoSe ©️
October
3, 2020
Greetings!
Feeling kind of yuck today. Have an insurance glitch. Well nightmare... they cancelled my health insurance again. It seems they always do that when I have an expensive procedure scheduled— so I have to change my radiology appointment tomorrow with my neurosurgeon.
Normally it would have me ragey shouting profanities and screaming my head off but today it just has me sad and overwhelmed.
Trying to balance my emotions through all these medication changes and hormonal changes (my body is starting to produce hormones on it's own again which is was not on the prednisone) is making my head spin.
It's not much fun for the people around me. Plus, the construction next door has really taken away my safe place that I go to and sit, read, and relax.
Now that the weather is cooling off I'll have to look for a nearby park I can go to and escape.
Trump is coming down this weekend so the protest season has begun. I'm having some trouble walking again but I can probably go in a wheelchair or take an Uber to our meeting place and use my big mouth for good.
That's all for me. Hope you're well.
Elyssa
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