Friday, May 24, 2024

Fwd: I'm tired. But not too tired to stop fighting.


/ed

Begin forwarded message:

From: E Durant 
Date: October 5, 2017 at 7:32:27 PM EDT
To: Me
Subject: I'm tired. But not too tired to stop fighting.



DailyDDoSe October 5, 2017


I've never been so involved in politics. Not when I was a lobbyist, not when I was a policy advisor to the Governor, not when I was on the Transition Team or any of the Task Forces working with the Department of Mental Health, TCCY, DCS to respond to crises that came about when they cut 400,000 off Medicaid, or misprinted the IDs for Medicare Part D creating mass chaos and confusion. 


Once the "transition" was done (it was a 6 month contract) I trusted that policies would be implemented effectively and felt confident the Obama admin had everything under control. 


Trump doesn't talk about healthcare because he doesn't bother to read the bills and if he does, he is either lying or lacks the intelligence to understand what they say. 


So yeah, I'm back. And I'm mad as hell. I never felt we were in imminent danger before. So if you are tired of seeing my posts simply unfollow. I get paid per word to write and not once have I been accused of posting Fake News. 

Friday, October 20, 2023

Enemy of the People

October 20, 2023


Dear Dad,

It was so wonderful to see you during your recent visit.

I hope you enjoyed the restaurants as much as I did and it was very nice to have two of my favorite people down here at the same time!!

I can't remember being so excited about anything as I was to get my ears re-pierced last week!!

I'm loving being able to wear earrings again, now I'll just need to find somewhere nice to go sometime soon.

Really glad you are both in such good health and really appreciated hearing your views on everything that is going on with Trump and the War in the Middle East.

I did a deep dive into the news coverage and spin since the morning the War broke out and it's very interesting to see how Florida DeSatan has been sending chartered flights to import Israelis to Florida, greeting them with hugs, swag and film crews when he while using the same funds to ship migrants to Martha's Vineyard a few short months ago.

The hypocrisy is astounding and many years from now, people are going to wonder what happened in Florida and the United States when fascism and White Christian Nationalism came to America and banned everything from books to Black History and AP Psychology.

I'm doing the best I can to immerse myself in history unfolding right before our very eyes because I learned enough in college, graduate school and working for the government to recognize all the policies and regulations that are leading us down that very dark road.

It gives me a great deal of pleasure to hear MAGA, Fox and Mom's of Liberty refer to my indoctrination at an Elite, Radical Left Wing Ivy League University turning out dangerous and evil alum like you and I because they hate Harvard too!!

Love you much, and hope to see you again soon.

Love,

Liz

Monday, March 27, 2023

Powers That Beat: In God We Trust? School Vouchers for Parochial School?


Powers That Beat: In God We Trust? School Vouchers for Parochial School?

In God We Trust? School Vouchers for Parochial School?

Elyssa D. Durant

Social Stratification 

Columbia University 

Guiding Questions

How can school vouchers reach a balance between serving the public interest and preserving. individual freedoms and rights?

What additional arguments can be presented for against the use of school vouchers for parochial schools?

How is the issue of school vouchers for sectarian institutions different or similar from issues surrounding prayer in school?

What are the common issues relevant to both Charter schools and voucher programs?

Since I have serious concerns regarding the long term outcomes of school choice and voucher programs, exacerbate the inequality between the rich and the poor. Since I believe that healthcare and education are both social goods, I have serious concerns about letting the free-market run amok during such a critical point in history.  I do not feel it is wise to allow for-profit market forces to dictate the any public good when natural rights are at stake.  The shortcomings of the Medicaid managed care programs, Medicare supplemental insurance policies, and demonstration projects such as the privatization of prisons provide sufficient evidence of the dangers of profit driven corporations in American culture. Corporate scandals with food and other suppliers contracted by the Board of Education in New York City provides an excellent example of how easy it is to manipulate funds away from the target recipients.

For example, private managed care companies offered gifts to boost enrollment by enticing desperate Medicaid recipients to join their plans.  I find this marketing strategy offensive when we are dealing with a social good albeit healthcare or education.  Vulnerable populations are frequently exploited through corporate contracts, and there is little reason to believe that for-profit conglomerates would treat public schools or economically disadvantaged students and families otherwise.

        Arguments on both sides of the school voucher issue are very similar to those presented for and against Charter Schools and free-market school choice.  Smrekar (1998) presents four key issues that have been at the center of the school choice debate:  (1) economic, (2) political; (3) social justice; and (4) pedagogical.

The economic argument in favor of school choice points out that our current public education system resembles a monopoly.  Proponents argue that the introduction of choice into the educational marketplace will promote competition and force schools with poor performance records to improve or close (Friedman, 1968).  

The political argument is centered on the democratic ideal that the freedom to choose where your child attends school is a fundamental right.  The political argument also triggers strong feelings about the role of education in a democratic society. 

 There are those who feel that the public school is intended, at least in part, to create a common set of core values that is best served by the public sector. At the core of the political school choice argument is a debate regarding the benefits of providing a common set of experiences in a democracy versus promoting individual choice and liberty (Smrekar, 1998).  This issue, while not dead, was challenged in 1925 when the Supreme Court ruled in Pierce v. Society of Sisters (268 U.S. 510 (1925)) in favor of parents who sent their children to private school.  This argument continues today and is at the center of both school choice and curriculum debates.  

 The social justice argument is a bit more complicated and there is little agreement on any front. Proponents argue that school choice empowers the poor to participate in the education of their children by giving them the same options available to wealthier families in the United States.  According to a 1997 poll in USA Today, 47% of parents would send their children to private schools if they had the financial resources (Doyle, 1997).

Information is an essential component to any school choice program.  In order to ensure social equity in school choice programs we need to be sure that the poor are fully informed of their choices and are not taken advantage of in the open market.  It is believed that the act of choosing has positive effects on the school environment and promotes parental involvement in their children's education (Doyle, 1997).  Additional components of the social justice argument have focused on the nuts and bolts of choice programs, and point out how there are several different ways that choice programs may (wittingly or unwittingly) promote social inequity (Cookson, 1995).  Such arguments focus on transportation problems, admissions policies, the availability of information, and how we define "choice" and implement policies regulating recruitment, enrollment and performance of participating schools, (Cookson, 1995; 1997).  

        The pedagogical argument points out that school choice programs are better suited for the individual needs inherent to a pluralistic society.  Although some feel there is value in providing core curriculum and a common set of basic skills, there is a current trend towards specialty schools that focus on the arts and sciences, technology, vocational training, etc.  Educators look towards successful magnet schools as examples of the pedagogical success that demonstrated the importance of school choice and parental involvement as indicators of educational outcomes.  Some educators fear that the introduction of school choice and voucher plans would prompt the best students to leave public schools and that this would have a negative effect on the overall climate of public classrooms.

        There are several different types of voucher programs, but the one which raises the most questions are voucher programs that give qualified individuals the choice to attend parochial schools.  Traditional arguments against this type of school voucher program have focused on the Constitutionality of using state funds for sectarian institutions.

Historically, the church had a key role in the education of children in America.  During the National Period (1780-1830), churches were used to educate children, and the King James Bible was used as a reader in these classrooms (Smrekar, 1998).  Derek Neal (1997) points out that much of the current sentiment against Catholic schools is not a reflection of their excellent performance record, but rather an indication of the anti-Catholic sentiment which swept the country during the late part of the 19th Century (Neal, 1997).  Neal argues that until that point, there was no contest to religious education as long as it was Protestant.  

Catholic schools have traditionally served the children of the working class.  They were a major socializing force earlier in the century and continue to succeed with children who might otherwise fall through the cracks in public schools.  Despite tapering enrollment, Catholic schools remain a viable force in the private sector providing a reasonably priced private education to American children.  Neal conducted a study that looked at the graduation rates of minority children attending Catholic schools compared with children attending public schools in the inner cities.  Controlling for demographic variables, (parent's education, parent's occupation, family structure, and reading materials at home) closer analysis revealed graduation rates for urban minorities are 26% higher in Catholic schools compared with public schools in the same communities.  Although Neal found similar benefits for whites and in suburban communities, this effect was most profound for urban minorities.

Other studies have focused on identifying the qualities that make Catholic schools successful.  A number of factors have been identified by Bryk and Lee, including active parental participation and the benefits of school choice in creating an inclusive community which fosters a common set of values and ideals (Bryk & Lee, 1995).  Interestingly, the very same variables found to enhance the performance of Catholic school students are remarkably similar to the reported benefits of magnet schools and choice programs.  Despite the excellent performance records of Catholic schools, there are currently no voucher programs that allow parochial schools to participate in state funded voucher programs.  

The reason for this is quite simple, but not necessarily correct or in the best interest of our children.  The Establishment Clause of the First Amendment of the United States Constitution prohibits the use of public funds in religious institutions.  However, it can also be argued that it is unconstitutional to exclude parochial schools from voucher systems because it violates the student's free expression of religion.  In addition, voucher programs require a conscious decision on the part of the student and the parent.  The state does not enforce a blanket endorsement of any one religion.  I use Catholic schools as an example because they represent the majority of parochial schools in urban America.

Voucher programs typically undergo strict scrutiny for all four reasons mentioned above, but this issue is especially true of any choice or voucher program that channels funds into Parochial schools.  For this reason, Catholic schools and other schools with religious affiliations have been excluded from voucher plans up until this point.  It is not politically viable to institute a choice or voucher program at any level (at the district, state or national level) since similar plans have historically presented long-standing, hard-fought, legal challenges to the Establishment Clause of the First Amendment of the United States Constitution.  

Since the Supreme Court has not ruled on this issue, most challenges up until this point have taken place in state courts[1].  These state decisions have been split, and while there are a few voucher programs operating in Wisconsin and Ohio, neither permits sectarian schools to participate in their programs.  Milwaukee designed a voucher system that included parochial schools in 1995 but later revised their proposal after the Wisconsin Supreme Court issued a temporary injunction against expansion into religious schools (Kremerer & King, 1995).

School choice programs that involve vouchers have not been tested in the Supreme Court, but there is a long history of court cases that challenge the flow of money from the public sector into private, sectarian institutions.  The recent pattern of Supreme Court rulings has lead some legal scholars (Kemerer & King, 1995) to conclude that school vouchers would pass constitutional muster under the following circumstances:

Provides payments in the form of scholarships to parents of school age children

Allows parents to choose among a variety of public and private sectarian and nonsectarian schools for their children

Gives no preference to sectarian private institutions

Voucher programs up until this point have encountered substantial resistance from the legal community and a number of civil rights and political organizations.  This becomes more pronounced when the voucher model includes sectarian institutions in the model plan and state court rulings have been inconsistent in decisions surrounding the constitutionality of voucher programs.

        The definitive case regarding school voucher programs is Lemon v. Kurtzman (403 U.S. 602 (1971)).  The Court's ruling in Lemon was based on three components that came to be known as the "Lemon Test".   The Lemon Test applies the following to any Constitutional challenge of the Establishment Clause:

The government action must have a secular purpose

The primary effect must neither advance, nor inhibit religion

It must not result in excessive governmental entanglement with religion

Since voucher programs do not generally provide support directly to the institution, individual freedom and choice remain intact.  Individual families are empowered by educational vouchers since they choose the school and religion appropriate for them.  Qualified schools are not determined by religious affiliation and all schools are required to adhere to state and federal regulations which increases accountability.  Similar issues came before the courts in Pierce v. Society of Sisters (268 U.S. 510 (1925)) as well, however Lemon v. Kurtzman (403 U.S. 602 (1971)) is considered to be both the landmark and test case currently before the courts.

The reason for this is quite simple, but not necessarily correct or in the best interest of our children.  The Establishment Clause of the First Amendment of the United States Constitution prohibits the use of public funds in religious institutions.  However, it could also be argued that it is unconstitutional to exclude parochial schools from voucher systems because it violates the free expression of religion.  In addition, voucher programs require a conscious decision on the part of the student and the parent.  The state does not enforce a blanket endorsement of any one religion.  I use Catholic schools as an example because they represent the majority of parochial schools in urban America.

Teacher's unions are resistant to bring in a new system that has the potential to upset their job status and security. It will likely be a number of years before we truly understand the effects of magnet schools and can evaluate the implementation of school choice programs that are already in place.  Because we are dealing with such an essential human, social good, it is my recommendation that we do not implement a large scale voucher program until issues of access and equity are resolved on other public fronts.  We must ensure real choices for the students and families who are not information savvy and may be limited in their ability to recognize the real value of their options. We must find a way to ensure the equitable distribution of resources so that education truly does will empower the poor.

        Is the time right to apply the Lemon Test to school vouchers?   You decide.

References

Cookson, P.W., Jr. (1994).  School choice: The struggle for the soul of American education.  New Haven: Yale University Press.

Cookson, P.W., Jr. (1995).   ERIC Digests: School Choice.

Doyle, D.P.  (1997). Vouchers for religious schools.  Public Interest, 127, 88-95.

Haynes, C.C. (1993).  Beyond the culture wars.  Educational Leadership, 51(4), 30-34.

Houston, P.D. (1993).  School vouchers: The latest California joke.  Phi Delta Kappan, 75(4), 61-64.

Kremerer, F.R. & King, K.L.  (1995).  Are school vouchers Constitutional?   Phi Delta Kappan, 77(1), 307-311.

Kremerer, F.R. (1995).  The Constitutionality of school vouchers.  West's Education Law Reporter, 101 Ed. Law Rep. 17.

Kremerer, F.R. (1997).  State Constitutions and school vouchers.  West's Education Law Reporter, 120 Ed. Law Rep. 1.

Neal, D.  (1997).  Measuring Catholic school performance. Public Interest, 127, 81-87.

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[1] Including a decision that was handed down this week regarding a choice plan in Ohio. (12/18/2000)




/ed

Thursday, August 25, 2022

July 1, 2022

July 1, 2022
12:32pm
I lit a scented candle and took the Ativan Pottash prescribed. 
Very dehydrated I think. Got some Gatorade and I'm watching the News and following Twitter. 
I'm sorry if I upset you. I don't want you to worry. The ENT passed me off to the head and neck oncologist at Miami Sylvester Cancer Center (I'll be there on Wednesday because that's where Dr. Cohen is doing my test procedure of a medial branch nerve block) 
But I told the nurse who called last night that the ENT made a referral to a specific doctor at Sylvester and Florez won't approve it so I'm going down there on the 14th to read them the riot act. 
The ENT said even if the biopsy comes back NOT cancer he wants me to see a cancer specialist because it won't heal with the magic Mouthwash (dexamethosone, corticosteroids and lanocaine) 
The steroids they gave me a t the hospital did help but I don't have any more left. Also, they gave me the steroids for my spine to reduce inflammation. They didn't know about my mouth but the ENT ordered me to go directly to the Emergency Room when he last saw me because my mouth was so bad I couldn't eat or drink fluids. 
Then Dr. Cohen (pain management ~ anesthesiologist) ordered me DIRECTLY to the Emergency Room from his office and wanted to call an ambulance.
I said no and they made me sign papers that I was leaving AMA. When Dr. Cohen sees me he admits me to the hospital for a few hours to do procedures eg steroid injections and then discharges me. Last time he made me sign AMA because he thinks I have additional spinal cord damage. 
You know how I feel about the Emergency Room and I had no idea they were going to admit me. 
They admitted me to neurosurgery and the surgeon came to my bedside to talk to me. 
REMEMBER GOOD SAM said for five months they didn't have a neurosurgeon?? Why couldn't they have done that in 2018??? They just left me in a bed, didn't change my clothes or panties once, didn't shower me or clean my body and I couldn't do it because my hands didn't work at all. 
No one cleaned / bathed me at all until you sent Elaine to me and she got a healthcare aide to go to Good Sam and she gave me a shower and washed my hair and got the knots out. 
Steve and Elaine didn't even recognize me when they came back to see me a few days later
When I was at Good Sam last month while you were in Vienna, they wouldn't let me shower or bring me washcloths to or cleanser. They didn't clean / bathe me and they cut off ALL Endocrinology (thyroid meds- dx para hyper thyroidism or hyper parathyroidism ?? epilepsy meds & Pottash's meds and didn't give me an iron, magnesium or potassium infusion which is what is generally given for dehydration rhabdomyolisis and given the acute state of my anemia that setting off alarms for Rheumatology and finally my PCP noticed. However they all wanna send me to a hematology oncologist. Good Sam picked up nothing. 
It was terribly traumatic and when I complained to the nurse that I had allergic reaction (my eyes swelled shut) and I had an allergy band on and he tried to give me the same medication FiVE TIMES!! 
They also kept giving me morphine which I did not want. They injected it and hurt terribly and burned going in because they did it too fast and didn't care when I said it hurt. 
They just didn't care. It was TERRIFYING because they kept lying to me and when I questioned and started taking photographs of the meds, nurse Chris Jovenes alibi or witness I'm not really sure which one; said to me "you can take as many photos as you want. I keep a lawyer on standby."
WHAT KIND OF A NURSE KEEPS A LAWYER ON STANDBY? 
And what in the world would prompt him to say that to a patient in his care?? 
Joevine said (with Chris in the room) "I do not consent to any photographs or notes of any kind, you may not use your phone and she took it out of my hands and that go over well. 
I had another one in my purse. 
HORRIFYING. I asked for an Ativan at 7:30 pm and the totally incompetent horrible Nurse named Joevine didn't bring it to me until 5:30am. 
The next day I had a seizure and they couldn't give me Ativan because Joevine fucked up the schedule. 
I didn't complain at first but they kept giving me the wrong meds even though I updated with a nurse at 1pm on Monday when I was admitted. They tried giving me high dose Of gabapentn, adddfall, Minipress , and no Effexor, Lyrica, Vyvanse or and gave me ?? mg of Cymbalta and then gave me 4 tablets on Tuesday NIGHT And told me it was Effexor. 
It's possible that it was 475 mg affects or however it was not extended released and I could tell because it wasn't a capsule. 
now they refuse to allow me to examine the medication before I took it. And when I ask specific questions about the medication that they were giving me since the works played a few I should not have been given they told they took them away and OK then you can't have any. 
So it was all or none. Now this is consistently a problem at good Sam and I think you've known this good Sam tried to give me Librium once I asked them what it what are you gonna be Librium for I don't bounce equilibrium I thought maybe they thought it was lithium as someone put that on my truck but no it was Librium which is for alcoholics. I told the nurse I was not an alcoholic, and there was a physical therapist in the room with me when I doth protest too much. 
I got up and looked at the chart and it was some patient down the hall. 
As these kinds of mistakes you may say or a minor however they add up overtime and they create extreme distress and caused a break in my treatment & recovery .
The entire time I was at good Sam I saw I don't know physical therapist, podiatrist for my feet or an oral surgeon for my mouth. 
they claim they do not have a record of my primary care provider which is marked clearly on my insurance card. 
They gave me absolutely no discharge instructions. 
which is my most important medication. Withdrawal form Effexor is very serious and Dr. Pottash knows that if you stop taking Ativan suddenly it can cause seizures. 
They we fed reckless and horrible. When I told the night nurse Chris (Joevines partner in crude ~ they came in together to bully me and STILL gave me the wrong meds. I wrote dow n like I always do so I can report o Dr. Pottash and neurology because they like me and appreciate my diligence. 
They kept me hooked to an IV that they turned off but the tubes kept me chained to the so I couldn't go to the bathroom. 
They did not answer calls for bathroom up to an hour and did not putt pads on my bed for accidents. 
IMPORTANT!! This is why I went to the ER. I wet my bed a few times and then I couldn't take fluids and I couldn't pee. These are all serious symptoms for neurology so they sent me to ER. 
The ER was fine and I zoomed with Dr. Pottash and my neurologist Dr. Arizala-Martinez. 
They made me so sick and I was only there a few days. And completely triggered my PTSD all over again. 
Trying to work through it but I don't have EMDR therapist anymore. 
*unfuniished medical document contemporaneous notes & hospital records to be added. 
PS Humana denied all patient for Good Sam. 
Fun. Good time. 
/ed
On Jul 2, 2022, at 9:57 AM, Marc Durant wrote:
Listen to some music and relax. Whatever will be, will be. If you have no control over it, there's no point in worrying about that. You still don't even have the biopsy results.
-----Original Message-----
From: Elyssa Durant
Sent: Saturday, July 2, 2022 9:21 AM
To: Marc Durant
Subject: Biopsy Referrals 
Thus is a fascinating time to be alive but I don't know how much more I can take
I assume the head and neck oncologist will tell me how long I have. Or the hematology oncologist. No one is telling me how long I have. And I'm so tired going from this doctor to that doctor.
I'm ready to let go and say my goodbyes. I just don't know how much time I have left to do do that. 
I can't handle fighting for treatment. Florez called me at 7 pm last night to see if I went to the hematology oncologist. 
Um, no. I can't schedule an appointment because you dkdnt send my medical records. 
I asked them AGAIN for a foot surgeon and a dermatologist to do a biopsy on my foot. 
The complete idiot said I can't handle it. 
It's too much for me. 
/ed
/ed

Saturday, July 2, 2022

Fwd: [DailyDDoSe] Patient Journal 📓 July 1, 2022 📆 Draft



Too traumatic to finish right now.  I'm sure you understand. 

July 1, 2022

12:32pm

I lit a scented candle and took the Ativan Pottash prescribed. 

Very dehydrated I think. Got some Gatorade and I'm watching the News and following Twitter. 

I'm sorry if I upset you. I don't want you to worry. The ENT passed me off to the head and neck oncologist at Miami Sylvester Cancer Center (I'll be there on Wednesday because that's where Dr. Cohen is doing my test procedure of a medial branch nerve block) 

But I told the nurse who called last night that the ENT made a referral to a specific doctor at Sylvester and Florez won't approve it so I'm going down there on  the 14th to read them the riot act. 

The ENT said even if the biopsy comes back NOT cancer he wants me to see a cancer specialist because it won't heal with the magic Mouthwash (dexamethosone, corticosteroids and lanocaine) 

The steroids they gave me a t the hospital did help but I don't have any more left. Also, they gave me the steroids for my spine to reduce inflammation. They didn't know about my mouth but the ENT ordered me to go directly to the Emergency Room when he last saw me because my mouth was so bad I couldn't eat or drink  fluids. 

Then Dr.  Cohen (pain management ~ anesthesiologist) ordered me DIRECTLY to the Emergency Room from his office and wanted to call an ambulance.

I said no and they made me sign papers that I was leaving AMA. When Dr. Cohen sees me he admits me to the hospital for a few hours to do procedures eg steroid injections and then discharges me. Last time he made me sign AMA because he thinks I have additional spinal cord damage. 

You know how I feel about the Emergency Room and I had no idea they were going to admit me. 

They admitted me to neurosurgery and the surgeon came to my bedside to talk to me. 

REMEMBER GOOD SAM said for five months they didn't have a neurosurgeon??  Why couldn't they have done that in 2018??? They just left me in a bed, didn't change my clothes or panties once, didn't shower me or clean my body and  I couldn't do it because my hands didn't work at all. 

No one cleaned / bathed me at all until you sent Elaine to me and she got a healthcare aide to go to Good Sam and she gave me a shower and washed my hair and got the knots out. 

Steve and Elaine didn't even  recognize me when they came back to see me a few days later

When I was at Good Sam  last month while you were in Vienna, they wouldn't let me shower or bring me washcloths to or cleanser. They didn't clean / bathe me and they cut off ALL Endocrinology (thyroid meds- dx para hyper thyroidism  or hyper parathyroidism ?? epilepsy  meds &  Pottash's meds and didn't give me an iron, magnesium or potassium infusion  which is what is generally given for dehydration rhabdomyolisis and given the acute state of my anemia  that setting off alarms for Rheumatology and finally my PCP noticed. However they all wanna send me to a hematology oncologist. Good Sam picked up nothing. 

 

It was terribly traumatic and when I complained to the nurse that I had allergic reaction (my eyes swelled shut) and I had an allergy band on and he tried to give me the same medication FiVE TIMES!! 

They also kept giving me morphine which I did not want. They injected it and hurt terribly and burned going in because they did it too fast and didn't care when I said it hurt. 

They just didn't care. It was TERRIFYING because they kept lying to me and when I questioned and started taking photographs of the meds, nurse Chris Jovenes alibi or witness I'm not really sure which one; said to me "you can take as many photos as you want. I keep a lawyer on standby."

WHAT KIND OF A NURSE KEEPS A LAWYER ON STANDBY? 

And what in the world would prompt him to say that to a patient in his care?? 

Joevine said (with Chris in the room) "I do not consent to any photographs or notes of any kind, you may not use your phone and she took it out of my hands  and that go over well. 

I had another one in my purse. 

HORRIFYING. I asked for an Ativan at 7:30 pm and the totally incompetent horrible Nurse named Joevine didn't bring it to me until 5:30am. 

The next day I had a seizure and they couldn't give me Ativan because Joevine fucked up the schedule. 

I didn't complain at first but they kept giving me the wrong meds even though I updated with a nurse at 1pm on Monday when I was admitted. They tried giving me high dose Of gabapentn, adddfall, Minipress ,  and no Effexor, Lyrica, Vyvanse or and gave me ?? mg  of Cymbalta and then gave me 4  tablets  on Tuesday NIGHT And told me it was Effexor. 

It's possible that it was 475 mg affects or however it was not extended released and I could tell because it wasn't a capsule. 

now they refuse to allow me to examine the medication before I took it. And when I ask specific questions about the medication that they were giving me since the works played a few I should not have been given they told they took them away and OK then you can't have any. 

So it was all or none. Now this is consistently a problem at good Sam and I think you've known this good Sam tried to give me Librium once I asked them what it what are you gonna be Librium for I don't bounce equilibrium I thought maybe they thought it was lithium as someone put that on my truck but no it was Librium which is for alcoholics. I told the nurse I was not an alcoholic,  and there was a physical therapist in the room with me when I doth protest too much. 

 I got up and looked at the chart and it was some patient down the hall. 

As these kinds of mistakes you may say or a minor however they add up overtime and they create extreme distress and caused a break in my treatment  & recovery .

The entire time I was at good Sam I saw I don't know physical therapist, podiatrist for my feet or an oral surgeon for my mouth. 

they claim they do not have a record of my primary care provider which is marked clearly on my insurance card. 

They gave me absolutely no discharge instructions. 


which is my most important medication. Withdrawal form Effexor is very serious and Dr. Pottash knows that if you stop taking Ativan suddenly it can cause seizures. 

They we fed reckless and horrible. When I told the night nurse Chris (Joevines  partner in crude ~ they came  in together to bully me and STILL gave me the wrong meds.  I  wrote dow n like I always do so I can report o Dr. Pottash and neurology because they like me and appreciate my diligence. 

They kept me hooked to an IV that they turned off but the  tubes kept me chained to the so I couldn't go to the bathroom. 

They did not answer calls for bathroom up to an hour and did not putt pads on my bed for accidents. 

IMPORTANT!!  This is why I  went to the ER. I wet my bed a few times and then I couldn't take fluids and I couldn't pee. These are all serious symptoms for neurology so they sent me to ER. 

The ER was fine and I zoomed with Dr. Pottash and my neurologist Dr. Arizala-Martinez. 

They made me so sick and I was only there a few days. And completely triggered my PTSD all over again. 

Trying to work through it but I don't have EMDR therapist anymore. 

*unfuniished medical document contemporaneous notes & hospital records to be added. 

PS Humana denied all patient for Good Sam. 

Fun. Good time. 

/ed

On Jul 2, 2022, at 9:57 AM, Marc wrote:

Listen to some music and relax. Whatever will be, will be. If you have no control over it, there's no point in worrying about  things you can't control. 

-----Original Message-----
From:  e 
Sent: Saturday, July 2, 2022 9:21 AM
To: Marc 
Subject: Biopsy Referrals 

Thus is a fascinating time to be alive but I don't know how much more I can take

I assume the head and neck oncologist will tell me how long I have. Or the hematology oncologist.  No one is telling me how long I have. And I'm so tired going from this doctor to that doctor.

I'm ready to let go and say my goodbyes. I just don't know how much time I  have left to do do that. 

I can't handle fighting for treatment. Florez called me at 7 pm last night  to see if I went to the hematology oncologist. 

Um,  no. I can't schedule an appointment because you dkdnt send my medical records. 

I asked them AGAIN  for a foot surgeon and  a  dermatologist to do a biopsy on my foot. 

The complete idiot said I can't handle it. 

It's too much for me. 


/ed

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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst


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Posted By Elyssa D'Educrat to DailyDDoSe at Jul 2, 2022, 
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

Patient Journal 📓 July 1, 2022 📆 Draft

Too traumatic to finish right now.  I'm sure you understand. 

July 1, 2022

12:32pm

I lit a scented candle and took the Ativan Pottash prescribed. 

Very dehydrated I think. Got some Gatorade and I'm watching the News and following Twitter. 

I'm sorry if I upset you. I don't want you to worry. The ENT passed me off to the head and neck oncologist at Miami Sylvester Cancer Center (I'll be there on Wednesday because that's where Dr. Cohen is doing my test procedure of a medial branch nerve block) 

But I told the nurse who called last night that the ENT made a referral to a specific doctor at Sylvester and Florez won't approve it so I'm going down there on  the 14th to read them the riot act. 

The ENT said even if the biopsy comes back NOT cancer he wants me to see a cancer specialist because it won't heal with the magic Mouthwash (dexamethosone, corticosteroids and lanocaine) 

The steroids they gave me a t the hospital did help but I don't have any more left. Also, they gave me the steroids for my spine to reduce inflammation. They didn't know about my mouth but the ENT ordered me to go directly to the Emergency Room when he last saw me because my mouth was so bad I couldn't eat or drink  fluids. 

Then Dr.  Cohen (pain management ~ anesthesiologist) ordered me DIRECTLY to the Emergency Room from his office and wanted to call an ambulance.

I said no and they made me sign papers that I was leaving AMA. When Dr. Cohen sees me he admits me to the hospital for a few hours to do procedures eg steroid injections and then discharges me. Last time he made me sign AMA because he thinks I have additional spinal cord damage. 

You know how I feel about the Emergency Room and I had no idea they were going to admit me. 

They admitted me to neurosurgery and the surgeon came to my bedside to talk to me. 

REMEMBER GOOD SAM said for five months they didn't have a neurosurgeon??  Why couldn't they have done that in 2018??? They just left me in a bed, didn't change my clothes or panties once, didn't shower me or clean my body and  I couldn't do it because my hands didn't work at all. 

No one cleaned / bathed me at all until you sent Elaine to me and she got a healthcare aide to go to Good Sam and she gave me a shower and washed my hair and got the knots out. 

Steve and Elaine didn't even  recognize me when they came back to see me a few days later

When I was at Good Sam  last month while you were in Vienna, they wouldn't let me shower or bring me washcloths to or cleanser. They didn't clean / bathe me and they cut off ALL Endocrinology (thyroid meds- dx para hyper thyroidism  or hyper parathyroidism ?? epilepsy  meds &  Pottash's meds and didn't give me an iron, magnesium or potassium infusion  which is what is generally given for dehydration rhabdomyolisis and given the acute state of my anemia  that setting off alarms for Rheumatology and finally my PCP noticed. However they all wanna send me to a hematology oncologist. Good Sam picked up nothing. 

 

It was terribly traumatic and when I complained to the nurse that I had allergic reaction (my eyes swelled shut) and I had an allergy band on and he tried to give me the same medication FiVE TIMES!! 

They also kept giving me morphine which I did not want. They injected it and hurt terribly and burned going in because they did it too fast and didn't care when I said it hurt. 

They just didn't care. It was TERRIFYING because they kept lying to me and when I questioned and started taking photographs of the meds, nurse Chris Jovenes alibi or witness I'm not really sure which one; said to me "you can take as many photos as you want. I keep a lawyer on standby."

WHAT KIND OF A NURSE KEEPS A LAWYER ON STANDBY? 

And what in the world would prompt him to say that to a patient in his care?? 

Joevine said (with Chris in the room) "I do not consent to any photographs or notes of any kind, you may not use your phone and she took it out of my hands  and that go over well. 

I had another one in my purse. 

HORRIFYING. I asked for an Ativan at 7:30 pm and the totally incompetent horrible Nurse named Joevine didn't bring it to me until 5:30am. 

The next day I had a seizure and they couldn't give me Ativan because Joevine fucked up the schedule. 

I didn't complain at first but they kept giving me the wrong meds even though I updated with a nurse at 1pm on Monday when I was admitted. They tried giving me high dose Of gabapentn, adddfall, Minipress ,  and no Effexor, Lyrica, Vyvanse or and gave me ?? mg  of Cymbalta and then gave me 4  tablets  on Tuesday NIGHT And told me it was Effexor. 

It's possible that it was 475 mg affects or however it was not extended released and I could tell because it wasn't a capsule. 

now they refuse to allow me to examine the medication before I took it. And when I ask specific questions about the medication that they were giving me since the works played a few I should not have been given they told they took them away and OK then you can't have any. 

So it was all or none. Now this is consistently a problem at good Sam and I think you've known this good Sam tried to give me Librium once I asked them what it what are you gonna be Librium for I don't bounce equilibrium I thought maybe they thought it was lithium as someone put that on my truck but no it was Librium which is for alcoholics. I told the nurse I was not an alcoholic,  and there was a physical therapist in the room with me when I doth protest too much. 

 I got up and looked at the chart and it was some patient down the hall. 

As these kinds of mistakes you may say or a minor however they add up overtime and they create extreme distress and caused a break in my treatment  & recovery .

The entire time I was at good Sam I saw I don't know physical therapist, podiatrist for my feet or an oral surgeon for my mouth. 

they claim they do not have a record of my primary care provider which is marked clearly on my insurance card. 

They gave me absolutely no discharge instructions. 


which is my most important medication. Withdrawal form Effexor is very serious and Dr. Pottash knows that if you stop taking Ativan suddenly it can cause seizures. 

They we fed reckless and horrible. When I told the night nurse Chris (Joevines  partner in crude ~ they came  in together to bully me and STILL gave me the wrong meds.  I  wrote dow n like I always do so I can report o Dr. Pottash and neurology because they like me and appreciate my diligence. 

They kept me hooked to an IV that they turned off but the  tubes kept me chained to the so I couldn't go to the bathroom. 

They did not answer calls for bathroom up to an hour and did not putt pads on my bed for accidents. 

IMPORTANT!!  This is why I  went to the ER. I wet my bed a few times and then I couldn't take fluids and I couldn't pee. These are all serious symptoms for neurology so they sent me to ER. 

The ER was fine and I zoomed with Dr. Pottash and my neurologist Dr. Arizala-Martinez. 

They made me so sick and I was only there a few days. And completely triggered my PTSD all over again. 

Trying to work through it but I don't have EMDR therapist anymore. 

*unfuniished medical document contemporaneous notes & hospital records to be added. 

PS Humana denied all patient for Good Sam. 

Fun. Good time. 

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On Jul 2, 2022, at 9:57 AM, Marc Durant <MDurant@durantlaw.com> wrote:

Listen to some music and relax. Whatever will be, will be. If you have no control over it, there's no point in worrying about  things you can't control. 

-----Original Message-----
From:  e 
Sent: Saturday, July 2, 2022 9:21 AM
To: Marc 
Subject: Biopsy Referrals 

Thus is a fascinating time to be alive but I don't know how much more I can take

I assume the head and neck oncologist will tell me how long I have. Or the hematology oncologist.  No one is telling me how long I have. And I'm so tired going from this doctor to that doctor.

I'm ready to let go and say my goodbyes. I just don't know how much time I  have left to do do that. 

I can't handle fighting for treatment. Florez called me at 7 pm last night  to see if I went to the hematology oncologist. 

Um,  no. I can't schedule an appointment because you dkdnt send my medical records. 

I asked them AGAIN  for a foot surgeon and  a  dermatologist to do a biopsy on my foot. 

The complete idiot said I can't handle it. 

It's too much for me. 


/ed

/ed
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

Saturday, April 23, 2022

DEADLY SIDE EFFECTS

Patient Journal 📔 

April 23, 2022

Pain 6/10
Mood 6/10



The sore throat, vomiting, coughing, shortness of breath and hoarseness were all "DEADLY WARNING SIGNS" from the lidocaine medicine they gave me at the urgent care clinic. 

I guess if you had taken me to either of my appointments in Miami for the lumbar facet injections or to the ENT on Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday they would have told you that since I found the information on a handout for "caregivers" since I was not supposed to be left unattended after the procedures. 

You had commented that my blood pressure was really low but it was not recorded at the urgent care clinic. 

You told me what it was, but I forgot what it was. 

There is absolutely no information on the bill they gave me regarding diagnosis or vital signs. 

They do not have a telephone number to the individual clinics and I called FIVE of them yesterday trying to locate "Francesco"

I asked how you found that place, if you called and checked that place out before we left. 

You told me that you were on another site (you were searching for a restaurant that had British Fish and Chips for dinner) and that was the last I heard from you until you came to my apartment and said you needed to pee at 12:15 just after my EMDR appointment. 

I also got the bill from AT&T after you went in there with me to change the plan to something more affordable. 

My phone was cut off the day after you left and the password was changed. 

For future reference, it is EXTREMELY inappropriate for you to tell sales people that I am autistic when I am trying to conduct official business. 

It cost me $120 to get the phone reactivated and will cost another $50 if I switch to a more affordable company but I'm glad you had a good time at the beach, the hotel and the fancy restaurants. 

I'm sorry you didn't find my apartment comfortable enough for your taste and had you asked I would have told you about the Free Trolley to the beach, outlets and museums. 

I'm not sure why you spent $100 on the beach pass since you had a handicap pass and it's all public parking but it's your money and I can't tell you how to spend it. 

You should try to get your money back from the rental car company since they made you wait 6 hours to find your reservation at the airport. 

I've never heard of $500 for a rental car unless it was a fancy upgrade like the fancy convertible I rented after graduation from Columbia back in 2002. 

It only costs $7 or so to take an Uber to the beach and it's less than 1 mile from my house. 

We use that as our meeting place for protests to Mar-a-Lago because it's very accessible to the public. 

Loved the photos you sent me from the beach and the restaurant. Too bad you couldn't sit outside because the Ivy and mosaic tables in the courtyard are much more iconic then the tired peach roses they put on the tables inside. 

It's great that you enjoyed the food, because I found it to be very overpriced and the lobster risotto was just ordinary. 

I'm surprised they didn't have a special Easter menu like most restaurants have on the holidays but if you liked it; great. 

Can't imagine it was better than the Lobster 🦞 you had at Bradley's before your flight home; but I guess that's the difference between being a local and being a tourist. 

Here's a video I made years ago with photographs  of all the hidden gardens on Worth Avenue that you probably missed. 

Enjoy.


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DailyDDose

Thursday, February 3, 2022

DailyDDose 📓 Kidney Cancer & Suicide

Back Story.

Absolutely devastating. He got kidney cancer and needed a kidney donor desperately. I was a match and my hematologist gave me the green light and I went through the interview process at Mt. Sinai in New York and then they stopped all transplant  surgeries due to COVID. 

My dad had kidney cancer and he knew of my intensions and was supportive. 

We just couldn't make it happen. Just couldn't make it happen.

The most tragic, devastating loss in my entire life. 

I never knew love like that before and there were many times I thought I didn't want to go on without him. 

I called the suicide prevention hotline and told them, all my friends and heroes are dead or dying and I just don't want to be hear without them. 

I was ready to take that leap. Stated searching online for drugs that would cause my heart to stop beating and since my psychiatric care had been so horrific, and I was unable to get  therapy and services I needed… I made some calls and tried to get my hands on some Fentanyl even though I've never used it and don't get the whole painkiller appeal. 

Just figured it would go down as another "suspicious death" intentional or otherwise. 

It just didn't matter anymore. I was done. 
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

DailyDDose 📓 February 3, 2022: Is this love?

DailyDDose 📓 February 3, 2022

Is this love? 


Spent my whole session talking about you in therapy today. 

I'm in therapy 3x week and now I'm starting EMDR. 

I finally reached a place where I can talk to you without crying and I told her how you helped me get through the first surgery but how you had completely ghosted on me after your cancer diagnosis and before I could donate a kidney (my hematologist gave me the go ahead and then Mt. Sinai said you were no longer a candidate) 

But then I saw Jessica repost that you need a miracle (kidney donor) and I addressed her directly and told her I was a match. 

You must be on dialysis now I guess. 

I was told you only had a year or two to live so I'm very confused as to what's going on but as my therapist told me, you clearly don't want me to know otherwise you wouldn't make me worry like that. 

She said that obviously I knew the "relationship" could only go so far and of course I did, but I was so happy, so very happy just to get your texts and hear your voice every day. 

I miss the way you made me laugh.  I miss sharing our mutual stories and wonder how you made it through the pandemic. 

I don't think I'm in love with you any more… but now that I have some distance I can unequivocally say that I've NEVER loved anyone so deeply or profoundly in all my life. 

I'm cool headed about things now and even if it takes you 10 years to call me, I hope at some point in the future you can spend $20 on a burner phone and call me so we can laugh again and get some closure.

Before we were lovers, we were friends. And I miss my best friend. 

I saw the pic of you out with Freitas,  Brian Deutsh, and a few others. 

You are wearing your glasses and your hair is growing long. You've never looked more beautiful to me but there is a sadness in your eyes. 

And your beard looks amazing. Grey looks good on you. I wish I could see more pics but you don't post Jack shit and I had to hunt down those photographs. 

I just miss your laugh. I miss the way you make me laugh and the way you could always read my mind. 

I won't start texting and calling every day again, but I hope you'll hold on to my number and one day, find the courage to use it.

/ed
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

Monday, January 31, 2022

DailyDDose (c) January 31, 2023

DailyDDose © January 31, 2022

Wishing you a Happy and Healthy New Year  

Begin forwarded message:

From: Elyssa Durant <elyssad@icloud.com>
Date: January 31, 2022 at 3:27:12 PM EST
To: Marc Durant <MDurant@durantlaw.com>
Subject: Re: Severe nationwide shortage of home health care workers.

Interesting article. It definitely is a shit job… showering and cleaning up after disabled adults ~ navy of whom have dementia and may be combative?? 

Horrible. They only make $11 per hour so it's no wonder it's hard to find trustworthy, reliable workers. 

You have no idea how vulnerable it makes me feel to have a stranger in my home shower and dress me?? 

It is a brutally humbling experience. 

I was in the hospital for almost FIVE months January 2018. They didn't shower me a SINGLE time. No one changed my hospital gown, brushed or wasted my hair or my body until you brought in Steve & Elaine to stay with me in the hospital. 

You really don't recover from that kind of psychological injury. 

Even when I asked Karen to help me, she refused. My peg mother refused to touch me and help me brush ny hair or clean my body. 

That's why it meant so very much to me when Rita took ny hand and helped me walk last week during your visit. 

I know it may sound minor to you and others when I constantly relive the emotional trauma that led to my severe PTSD but try to imagine yourself completely helpless and alone for MONTHS (actually years) with no human  interaction or contact for the NINE YEARS I've been living here in Florida in complete isolation. 

It's no exaggeration and I feel terribly alone and scared of the perpetual physical and emotional abuse I've suffered by Karen, her miserable, violent rabid new husband, Paul and Darryll. 

I'm so far from okay, I don't think I'll ever recover.  To say I've regressed into a scared little child is a monumental understatement. I am permanently scarred and altered for life. 

January 31, 2022
3:25pm

e

Wishing you a Happy and Healthy New Year 🍾  2022
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

Saturday, January 29, 2022

DailyDDose January 29, 2022 ❄️⛄️

Memory Bank: January 29, 2022

My family and friends are sending me photos of the snow ❄️ from the NorEaster that is leaving a blanket of snow in New York, New Jersey and Pennsylvania. 

And of course, I am thinking of *Him*


I wish you could send me a photo of the snow ❄️ 

Remember that time we got snowed in without electricity my first year at Columbia? 

We had no power for days. We only had the light from my little AST laptop computer 💻 

It was my very first compute and you taught me how to use the 14.4 PCMCIA modem to get online!!? 

YOU HAVE MAIL 

We had the light of the laptop 💻 and walked in the morning to get bagels 🥯 

Come sundown, we walked to Sweet to get Chinese Food 🍲 

Do you remember that apartment? 

33 Central Drive
Port Washington, NY 11050

And when I moved into the city, you showed up at my place all bundled up and covered in snow. I don't know how you found me but you did. 

We hadn't spoken in a while, and no words were necessary. 

You looked so sad and pathetic covered in snow ⛄️ 

You looked up at me with those big brown eyes and I knew exactly what you wanted to say. 

I let you in and we made love and just like that ~ we we're back together again. 

If only for a night~ or for all eternity. 

We had a bond that couldn't be broken.

When you look out that window and see all of that snow, try and remember all of the times we had together, staying warm and snuggly inside with the beautiful white pure driven snow ❄️ pilling up outside our window. 

Wishing you a Happy and Healthy New Year  🍾
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Elyssa Durant Research and Policy Analyst

Monday, October 4, 2021

Health export please save

Monday, October 4 2021 
6:33am


EST PT with Delvis
santana, MD

Scanner obviously not working 




Monday December 13 2:20 PM

I can't get the Sim card in my hands aren't steady enough and all of my nails broke so I can't get the top off of the prepaid cell phone  

I spoke to Missy and she can send me a new one same day I can get it delivered the issue is that this Sim card is linked to the FCC broadband benefit program. 

 Through it it registers to apply for multiple benefits across-the-board such as food stamps I could probably do the Medicare application through that but I can't do all of us by myself with my head exploded.

I don't understand Android it doesn't make sense to me. 

What will probably do is reactivate the other Chinese Cell and put like $10 on there to keep it active. 

 The issue with that phone is it has passwords saved it for Columbia I have since been compromise. 

Can't see the password I can't change the password but it's in that phone. Even when the phone is not active I can connect to Wi-Fi and still get Internet sometimes 

No but I was here I didn't watch him I wouldn't sit in the room with him because I didn't wanna make him feel like the criminal sidekick  that he is. 

 He did not fix ANYTHING. 

But I did find and I'm not gonna say who did it because there were multiple people at my apartment that day, But somebody disconnected the modem and it's in Karen's name I was there when she changed over she did it in the Miami hotel room fucking bitch. 

 But Darryl took my modem. What I found was that my TV splitter I've been removed there's dust everywhere and when I turn it on it's simply does not work. 

 When I called Comcast and ask them to send me a Recents and well it says that the phone number does not match what's on the account and they cannot give me the password or reset it v

At that point they said Karen a pin number to reset it that's only good for between five and 15 minutes to get your shit set up. 

Karen of course won't relinquish that number because that's the only bit of control that she has over me. 

Now I think it's really super Duper important that you recognize this is not a new thing this is an ongoing pattern with paren tries to control a communications and that is a very very simple like ABC 123 simple sign of neglect and abuse for children they disabled and elderly. Now I think it's really super Duper important that you recognize this is not a new thing this is an ongoing pattern with paren tries to control a communications and that is a very very simple like ABC 123 simple sign of neglect and abuse for children the disabled and elderly 

I know this for being a therapist and working with kids who were abused as soon as I called them are called the foster home and was told that they are not allowed to communicate with me I went over there with the police. 

You need to think about this carefully OK there's a security code to get into the building. 

NONE of the people who came last week use a security code to an agent they all just came and knocked on my door.  They simply said your mother sent me over to fix blah blah blah. 

I don't know what fixing the sliding doors or the closet door has anything to do with the electrical panel. 

But the jude Elijah from Israel he's 22 years old and what's with the bomb squad according to him put on rubber gloves to change a lightbulb in the utility closet he then try to cut the power to the electric 

Call Teas boss and his boss said that he could not fix the door either of the doors I am the curtains curtains in the closet door because it was too much of a liability issue. 

A LIABILITY ISSUE!! 

What that mean in Laymans terms is it so fucking day address because it keeps coming down crashing on my head but not gonna let some young apprentice Highgate back up and fix the door because it's dangerous What that mean in Laymans terms is it so fucking day address because it keeps coming down crashing on my head but not gonna let some young apprentice drill into unstable door frame back up and fix the door because it's too dangerous. 

Karen clearly hasn't thought this through. What is a violation of the building code and it's violation of my lease and it's liability where she has $1 million liability insurance as per the HOA code 

I'm not playing with Karen. She has millions of dollars comes of it still not shit just to make it a inconvenient. 

 Last time she was here she stole my fucking vacuum cleaner that's a second vacuum cleaner she took for me. 

Ray and I were talking about just the other day and she stole my little robot vacuum cleaner that like she obsessed about obsess obsess obsess RoboT cleaner 

And she obsessed about the  modem. The modem of the modem modem

Nobody seen her do that she comes into my apartment I switched our crazy shit and she switched out the silverware on me. 

Seriously fucked up because when you think about it everything about appointment was measured clinically can I have the paperwork to prove it so that if I fall all right then I can get out for my walker was measured to the couch so that I could stay on top of that shit is all fucked up now. 

It's gonna cost thousands and thousands of dollars to fix it I don't have thousands of dollars are the patience and I don't have the inclination. 

 I guess what I'm just venting which is very enjoyable to me and really good for my sake and for my service because when I vent scream and yell I don't feel the pain. 

Where is gonna be here in a couple of weeks I member last year when I was at the hospital this phone access at home I was unconscious and Karen will you bring my iPad iPhone to the hospital I said OK I'll just wait for Ray to get it. 

And Karen said where is that gonna be here for another month 

That was over a year ago fuck Karen. 

 All right guess here I'm sure he won't mind taking a quick look at the fucking cars in the door I can probably fix the door himself. 

 Ray put together my last test I had I think the table so I'm sure he will rise for half an afternoon how many pick out a desk that doesn't fall apart the Karen doesn't have access to. 

Ok. Construction of the biggest started there goes my silent day I have to rewrap my feet to things came off. 

Here's my healthcare access pass. 

Oh shit load of my healthcare data got the latest one was on the phone parents of the others on the phone it doesn't start. Like the one you had does not mean that the information isn't that the information is there you just need a different way to tap into it. 

OK but mines race million and one things to do I don't have time to sit down and relax put my feet up seriously like I'm supposed to. 

All this shit is left over from last year and the year before the year before it's been over a year that I've been discharged hospital can I head to the back it's rehab because I was left alone with no healthcare for 13 days and unconscious according to the records Miami was able to get. 

We still don't know who called 911. 

Can't tell you how critical that is however for the meantime I'm going to just leave it at all there's no place to leave it there's just no place to leave it. 

When this shit isn't resolved all it does is go back into a cycle it's like when you program a computer you start was lying 10 you give it the first command at the end you put go to 10 it's an infinite Loop 

That's what is zero JS OK it's an infinite Loop. 

That's what is zero JS OK it's an infinite Loop

You can see my voice activation isn't working. 

 All the Russian hackers are all here I'm fucking Florida favorite TV series Russian  I have a Chinese keyboard… 

The Secret Service and FBI obviously now not only who I am but where I live because they came to talk to me. 

I really wish they'd arrest me so I can get a little team appointed I miss is really frustrating I can't handle this shit by myself. 

Last thing I order a mouse for computer because I can't use the touch up and it doesn't have the USB port in it so having problems your computer only has two US people I need more than two because I'm connecting portable drives 

The computer needs at least 100 GB to update and connect to my iPhone through iTunes so I can find my phone so I can manage my network. 

Make no Mistakes this is seriously illegal shit that she's doing under so many fucking laws can't even begin to tell you. 

I qualify for this FCC Broadband thing but I can't fucking use it. 

 OK seriously have to go and I said getting very stressed out I'm gonna take it out of it too overwhelmed and I can't start my day like this I need to just just quiet myself down get Cleo calm down Petco in lowest heart rate and just relax. OK seriously have to go and I said getting very stressed out I'm gonna take it out of it too overwhelmed and I can't start my day like this I need to just just quiet myself down get Cleo calm down petting her lowers my heart rate. 

I'm sorry. 


Saturday, September 11, 2021

Cleo 🐾

I spent an hour yesterday brushing Cleo and she slept with me ALL night so I could feel her soft fur. 



Before my first surgery,  I couldn't feel my hands at all. You could have stabbed me with a knife and I wouldn't have known so it made it super extra special to feel how fuzzy and soft she is. 

She's a very good cat. I can't imagine why anyone would kick her in the face and hurt her so badly but I think I know exactly how she feels and it makes it super special that she trusts me enough to pet her tummy. 

Dad says you can't train a cat. Maybe so, but she ate a treat out of my hands and brings me all her fresh mousies 🐁 and presents them to me in her mouth. 

I guess she doesn't realize I'm the one hiding the mice all over the apartment!! She thinks she's bringing me a gift and I showed her with praise when she gives them to me. 
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ed/DailyDDose