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Thursday, September 26, 2013

UNWRITTEN: Application Denied

Your Name: Elyssa D. Durant
Position Desired: YOURS

What are you seeking in a job at this point in your life?
An advocacy position working with children that would allow me to combine my academic training and educational background with my passion for grassroots policy planning and program development. I have been working at the grassroots level with a number of organizations for many years, and I enjoy seeing the public realize how effective they can be in advocating for themselves. I have witnessed many people take off personally and professionally once they experience how gratifying it can be to become empowered through expressing their views and making their voices heard. I enjoy leading people on this path of empowerment.
Why do you want to work with children?
Having participated in the head start program as a small child, I was fortunate enough to be given additional resources that allowed me to be on a level playing field when I started Kindergarten at 4 ½ years-old. I believe working with Stand for Children will allow me to give a voice to small children and some of the disenfranchised families who have the greatest need for strong, well-organized representation.

How would you explain community or grassroots organizing and what about it appeals to you as opposed to other ways to improve the lives of children?
Grassroots advocacy would allow me to work directly with stakeholders on critical policy initiatives and budget priorities. I enjoy helping the public have their opinions heard and consider myself empathetic to the needs of my target audience and population. I enjoy working towards a stated goal and seeing that programs be properly designed, planned, and implemented to allow for effective program development and policy implementation. In addition, working sat the grassroots level allows you to interact with those who are directly affected by the programs and policy reform initiatives. I enjoy listening to people and helping to empower the disenfranchised populations. Grassroots work allows you to see change happen and letting people know how important each and every voice is on the political spectrum. By establishing a positive network of community alliances and establishing a good rapport with the general public, they will feel that they had a direct role in creating the new programs and policies, and they are much more likely to remain active in their child's education and community programs long after I am gone.

What adjectives would people who know you generally use to describe you? Name specific work situations in which these attributes have served you.
People often comment on my dedication: I do not take on causes that I do not believe in. I will do "whatever it takes" to see that I achieve results that are beneficial to the community I live in, the organization I represent, and the children who need my voice.
I am sincere and not easily swayed from my viewpoints. I am very true to my clients, and believe in what I say. I am outspoken. I am not easily intimidated and believe that I have a right to be heard, as do the children, families, and communities I represent. I am eloquent, logical, and persuasive. I can usually find a way to relate to my clients, and give them a reason to participate in the legislative process. I help them understand that they are a crucial in seeing effective programs implemented in a way that will best serve the needs of their children and communities. I help my clients feel empowered by showing them how their direct participation can improve their circumstances and the lives of their children. I try to demonstrate how easy it is to participate in developing effective policy and public programs. I encourage them to become more active in their own lives by showing them how important it is to be heard by their legislators, congressional representatives, and their community leaders.
I am effective because I get things done!

What would your former employers say about you? What areas would they suggest you work on?
  • "Her involvement with the class, her interaction with the students and teachers alike, and her willingness to listen while offering fresh insight of her own made working with Elyssa a very enjoyable experience."
  • "Her energy for the work and the educational process showcased both her abilities for problem solving and her well-developed communication skills."
  • "Elyssa's enthusiasm for knowledge and the process of learning impressed me a great deal. She has an active curiosity about education and the learning process."
  • Some employers have not been quite as enthusiastic regarding my level of personal involvement with my work... they may suggest I work on my objectivity in the workplace. I tend to take my work very seriously.


Please list your top five achievements at your last position.
  1. My clients still call me from school in the morning to let me know they made it there safely. None have dropped out and five will be graduating this May!
  2. One former client is no longer abusing small animals after we took a day trip to the animal shelter. He now demonstrates empathy towards animals and treats them with a gentle hand.
  3. Mental health parity has received considerable more attention from the press after the NBCNightly News picked up an article I wrote. NBC requested on camera interview, but my schedule was not the least bit forgiving at the time.
  4. New York State passed a bill for Medicaid buy-in the day after I had organized a trip to Albany for members of my community who were at-risk for losing their benefits.
  5. My persistence locating subjects (participants in a long-term study of children with severe emotional disorders) allowed for more reliable and valid results since a larger, more representative sample was achieved for the third and final wave of interviews. The methods and study results were discussed recently in a prestigious journal of public policy.


Describe an interpersonal challenge you faced with a co-worker and how you resolved it.
I learned that my supervisor had altered some of my case notes for a client file that was scheduled to be audited. After confronting him with my original documentation and the new paperwork that was in the child's file, he told me that it was critical not to reflect abuse in my client files since it would cause the company to loose referrals from the Department of Children's services. After speaking with my sister (an attorney) I decided to make copies and forwarded them anonymously to a child rights organization.

What did you learn from it?
I ultimately resigned since I felt I did not want to be part of an organization that would place financial incentives above a child's welfare.

What experience do you have working directly with children? Concerns for children?
For my undergraduate practicum, I worked as a social skills counselor in a school-based intervention program designed for high-risk youth. After working with various groups of children, I began to notice significant differences in their levels of self-esteem. This made me increasingly concerned about policy issues involved in special education, assessment, and placement. I think it is critical to explore alternative program options that would allow children to receive the special attention they need without jeopardizing their emotional development.

Have you ever been involved in an effort to change a policy or a budget priority? Please describe.
Yes-several years ago, I had the opportunity to participate in the Governor's Roundtable on TennCare. The new CEO had implemented cuts to the program without providing members (or providers) with adequate time or information prior to implementing a major change to the prescription formulary (the list of approved medications.) Because I had witnessed the fallout at my local pharmacy that weekend, my supervisor requested that I draft a written statement to the committee regarding the impact of these changes for beneficiaries. After the newly appointed CEO of TennCare denied receiving any negative feedback on his rapid budget cuts, my boss asked me if I would be willing to speak before the committee and call his bluff. Ultimately, this lead to the passage of the Grier Amendment. Grier provides beneficiaries with a formal procedure that must be followed prior to cutting off any medications prior to receiving a formal appeal. Grier provides beneficiaries with a form of "due-process" protection granting them access to an adequate supply of medication while their physician can has the opportunity to obtain the necessary authorization for medically necessary treatment.
I recently ran into the former CEO that implemented the poorly planned budget cuts. He now works at my local gas station in the mini-mart; however, he claims they offer excellent health insurance with unlimited pharmacy benefits.

Why, in your opinion, do schools, early childhood education, and other programs that give children a fair chance in life receive so much less funding than they need and deserve?
I believe there are several reasons that contribute towards the pattern of under-funding educational programs. First, I believe that the "war on terror" has misrepresented our budget priorities to the general public. Second, I believe that there is a hesitation to re-distribute funds so that they can be used in the communities that would benefit the most from additional sources of funding. Third, I think that the people designing the budget are not sympathetic to the needs of the underprivileged, and they are reluctant to offend wealthier constituents by allocating funds towards impoverished districts. Fourth, I believe that the general public is quite comfortable believing that all is well in American schools, and if we keep adjusting the SAT's to reflect this myth, the true state of education will most likely be ignored. As a society, we must decide that education is a top priority and fund education in the same way we fund the military. I could go on, but I will not!

What specifically can be done to ensure that more public funding goes to schools, early childhood education and other programs that give children a fair chance in life?
We need to think of educational policy reform initiatives and programs in terms of equity rather than equality. Equality is a myth. Some children, schools, communities, and parents simply need more if they are to benefit from the large number of pre-k programs soon to become available to young Tennesseans. We must meet their needs by matching them with appropriate programs and opportunities by virtue of their parent's financial resources. We must reframe the educational model in terms of equity not equality; all homes and all schools are sadly not equal.
I was a head start child myself, and I am proud of my academic achievements. With the new lottery in place, many children will have a new source of opportunity: scholarship money can provide a completely new funding source beyond the standard K-12 public education. We need to reframe the educational model so that we can improve the system for children who are "at-risk" of falling behind so that they have true equal opportunity. There are many new opportunities to be had in the state of Tennessee. Not only can children now benefit from the new pre-K programs being developed, but they can also benefit from educational funding that has become available in the form of Hope scholarships that the lottery program offers for college.
We need to give children a fair shot at actualizing their inherent capabilities and help them to develop a love of learning before they have an opportunity to be lost in the "system."

Share experiences you've had in forming or building an organization.
As the director of special programs for NAMI, I had the opportunity to work with consumers and their families by planning special events and programs. I made frequent trips to the local psychiatric hospital to talk to consumers about how they need to take an active role in planning new programs-especially if they were unhappy with the current programs in place for SPMI (severe and persistent mentally ill) populations. I was amazed at how much you can accomplish on a long road trip by providing a school bus and free lunch for all who were willing to participate and make their voice (and their votes) count!


ESSAY SELECTED FOR PUBLICATION IN "GUIDE TO WRITING GRADUATE SCHOOL ESSAYS FOR THE HEALTH SCIENCES"


STATUS: APPLICATION DENIED


 IRONY: PRICELESS



Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Reviews of Powers That Beat


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Powers That Beat by Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.
ASIN: B00BV7018


When Elyssa writes something, you should read it. She is one of the most intelligent and articulate people I have ever known. She is an amazing researcher and really digs deep for the important facts on any topic she focuses on. If you want to learn details about a topic and get some cutting edge viewpoints related to it, read anything Elyssa Durant writes.
Stuart Silverberg, Ed.D.
Columbia University

Ms. Durant has a talent for explaining complex legal issues in interesting, accessible format. Her level of expertise on the subject matter is impressive and comes through on every page.
Rick Silver, Esq.

Ms. Durant has drawn on her sterling academic background and extensive experience in health services policy development and actual service in the field to present a comprehensive analysis of the organ transplant situation in the United States. She thoroughly discusses all aspects of the situation - not only legal and medical, but also moral, social and ethical aspects and the dilemmas faced when this topic is addressed. Ms. Durant raises significant questions that must be addressed as organ transplants become more commonplace in today's times. A thought provoking book that should be read by everyone as this question touches every American. Highly recommended.
J. D. Yencharis
NASA Mission Planning & Mission Control

Ms. Durant has an amazing ability to discuss complex policy issues in easy to understand language. She has a tremendous grasp of her topic and of her audience. Easy to read and understand; Ms. Durant explains difficult concepts and evolving health care law and policy issues in a user friendly manner. A real eye opener!
Karen Baker, MSW


Personal Reference:
Tim Welsh, Executive Director AutismAid.org Traffic through the roof! AutismAid USA Goes the extra mile !! Go for Gold  WORLDWIDE

I just want all to know what a Hero for the Autism community Elyssa has been for us and how much we appreciate her advocacy and intelligent posts. AutismAid has been a dream of mine for ten years. my heart was just about broken when others took advantage of us. I know that in the end we meet people who we connect with and do the right thing. The 13 Service non profits under the AutismAid Umbrella and many others are in the fight for their life in this economy and environment. This Web and viral traffic is great. Thank you providing the support, documentation and logistics are needed to make the event happen.
@TannersDad
Tim Welsh, Executive Director
AutismAid.org

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Educrap From an Educrat: Elyssa Durant's "Harangue" 📚

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Fan Mail for ELyssa D'Educrat 📰

EDUCRAP FROM AN EDUCRAT

After reading Elyssa Durant's antf-standardized testing harangue in the Nashville City Paper ("Equity in Education," Aug. 21), I was not at all surprised to learn that the author is a product of a graduate-level education program. Schools of education have long taught future teacher - and other members of the education establishment - to blame everyone but themselves for children not being able to read, write, and do simple math.

The assertion that the ACT and SAT are racially biased is pure poppycock. A student's score on the ACT or SAT is an excellent measure of his or her ability to do college-level math, science, and writing. If a student cannot solve a simple algebraic equation, or if the same student has but a rudimentary grasp of the rules of grammar, the test that points out the student's shortcoming should not be impugned. Instead, the parents, teachers, and educrats who allow students to march toward graduation without receiving a proper education are the ones who deserve derision.

Furthermore, Durant's contention that standardized tests "do not accurately predict academic performance at the college level" is in desperate need of qualification. Some 40 percent of college freshmen require remedial courses in reading, writing or mathematics. These courses, according to Harvard education professor Bridget Terry Long, intended to address acadennc deficiencies and to prepare students for subsequent college success." Thus, high school students who a generation ago would have been forced into the workforce are given a fifth year to complete their high school coursework. And let's be clear: remedial classes may be, well, remedial classes; but students enrolled in such classes are expected to learn the material or face the consequences, i.e., a quick and inglorious end to their college experience. For many - nay, most - remedial students, it is the first time in their academic careers that they are forced to learn.

Jottin' Django ®

📰 Woo hoo! Made you look!

This was my first public lashing in the news. Definitely not the last.

I stand by my the original article and think this guy has a clear agenda. Long live Harvard, you elitist snob.

^ed

Monday, February 25, 2013

Sunset Prayer at Cemetary Gates

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Several years ago, someone told me that Grandpa was not my "real" grandfather.

Looking back now, I know that was not true. Grandpa was one thing in my life that was, in fact, very, very real.

My grandfather embodied all things constant: consistency, reliability, and unconditional love. I could always depend on him to be there for me: as a child, a young woman, and an adult.

So now I ask myself and all of you to help me define what is "real?" I believe you will come to understand it as I have: "real" is something or someone we can touch; something we can feel.

My grandfather was a man I could trust, a man I could admire, and a man who stood up for what he believed in. My grandfather was, in fact, a man that was so real that he could single-handedly turn dreams into realities.

When I was little, I used to go to my grandparent's when I was too sick to go to school. Grandma would load me up with tea and cheese and Grandpa would load me up with Vitamin C.

As I got older, he continued to care for me. When I was hungry, he sent me food; when I was cold, he sent me clothing. When I was sick, he sent me more vitamins!

When I was scared, he gave me courage; when I was lonely, he gave me shelter; when I was sad, he gave me hope.

He was a man of action, a man of honor, and a man of truth. But most of all, he was a man of integrity. He was a man who exemplified all things wonderful that life had to offer.

He was generous beyond reason and he gave me those things in life money simply cannot buy: he gave me roots, he gave me foundations, and most importantly, he gave me wings.

Rest in peace, Grandpa. You were loved.


Read more:
  • Relatively speaking: What is "real?"
  • Does DNA alone define who you are? Where you came from? A relationship?
  • Blood is not always thicker than water.
ELyssa Durant © 2008-2013 || All Rights Reserved ELyssaD™ || DailyDDoSe™ @ELyssaD™



Just me,
e

@ELyssaD™
http://elyssadurant.com
http://powersthatbeat.com
^ed








Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Trapped by Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.

Trapped

Have you ever been trapped?

I am not talking about your every day run-of-the-mill subway congestion or an elevator that is filled beyond capacity.  

Trapped.

No way out.

Paralyzed.

Frightened, frustrated, angry and desperate.

Like any ordinary "normal" person, you are going about your daily activities and the next moment you are drowning in unfamiliarity.  In reality, little has changed.  Sadly, nothing has changed.  Minutes, hours, years have passed... but nothing has changed.

Despite evidence to the contrary, your actions seem to have no consequence.  

This is how I feel.  Not as often as I used to, but more often than I care to admit and more often then I would like.  It leaves me paralyzed-- much like a deer frozen by the illuminating light of oncoming traffic.

It is a short journey from the trigger back to the beginning.  

I wonder what I may do if my task was completed.  It is my greatest hope to find a place where I can end this debilitating madness.  Just break the cycle. Free. Free from the need to provide objective verification of my physical existence and a rational basis for a seemingly bizarre obsession.

I know these things.  I organize my life in a sequential, numerical, historical, logical order where everything has a designated beginning, middle and end.

There must be a place where reason and purpose replace obsessions and insanity.  

Can anyone understand this madness?  Why can't you see how simple everything is for me?

I need things to be simple.

My patterns seem so obvious. Pay attention!  What seems like chaos to you serves as my salvation.  Don't you see how resourceful I am?  I know my methods are rigid but they are clearly consistent with my "mission" in life.  

Few can be bothered with the elegant simplicity of my rituals.  My behaviors are rational! They protect my delicate foundation. I do not have far to fall.

I need an out!

Why question my methods? 

By collecting physical evidence of my experiences and transient existence, I can be someone. Someone with a past, a present, maybe even a future.

I collect, therefore I am.

Look! I have proof! History. References.

I want to be part of your world.  Really I do.  

I want roots, consistency and foundations.  I want high school reunions and a hometown.

My task must be finished!  It is destroying my relationship with my future self.  My soul is withering away beneath this desperate facade.  

Please give me a moments consideration and see me.  

I am not cruel.  I am not evil.  Nevertheless, I am so alone and isolated.  I am here and I am ready.  I am ready to end this endless search for home.  But how?

I need you.  I need you to help me find a place where I can feel comfortable ending this vicious cycle.  

I am looking to you... the collective you of humanity to help me through this time of need and uncertainty.  

All I seek is compassion, empathy, and understanding. I continue my search hoping I am not completely alone in my quest.

Restoring order dominates my very existence.  Keeping me trapped in the past; invading the present; dictating my actions through repetition, ruminations, anxiety and fear inhibiting my growth and progress.  I do not have it in me to climb out of another depression.  

Don't you see how this life is breaking me?

If only I had the same resignation and grace of that lone Buck crossing a quiet country road, I would cherish the instant where I am faced with certain death or total salvation.  I would search for a sanctuary where forgiveness replaces damnation.

For one instant, I would welcome the challenge to live freely in this brave new world...  to explore and run free on a distant, winding path.

I would stand proud, defiant, and free.

Really, truly, trapped.  

Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.  © 2002

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Who is ELyssaD™?

Who is ELyssaD™?

I started this private site after my name, ID, medical and financial info was stolen, made public in Pastebin, and sold on T-shirts at the DefCon hackers conference.

I never got one penny for the T-shirts and apparel sold and was never reimbursed for the damage done to my computer equipment and mobile devices as a result of HARD CORE hackers.

I was promised the T-shirts and promo ads would be pulled from the event and the black hat hackers known as Lulz, AntiSec, (Sabu and Co.) would take them down and refrain from using my likeness for promotional purposes.

They were not.

They used my name, my likeness, my photos, my social security number, my ID, my address and more to create a slew of fake social media accounts to post insane bullshit across a variety of platforms. 

They even socially engineered my closest friends and family members in various forums to reinforce the charade.

They claimed the T-shirts were for charity and that $1.00 would be donated for every ELyssaD garment sold.

Not only did I not receive any such monies, I am quite certain these fuckwits have no idea how serious it is to impersonate a 501(c)3.

So not only did they make a profit from exploiting every aspect of my life, they harassed my friends, impersonated an ex-cop who has been one of most trusted allies and confidant; threatened friends who dare to speak up on my behalf by calling them on the phone and identifying themselves as law enforcement. ANOTHER felony.

They made a profit. They offered a reward for tittie pics, had podcasts, comic books and sold a line of women's apparel to promote their podcasts, show and of course, make money.

They created multiple fake identities on various social media platforms. They pwned my website, social media accounts, linked in, private forums, etc...  harassed my friends and posted my fathers home address on the internet.

They altered personal documents they stole from my private files, altered them, and had the nerve to put the FAKE documents back in to my web albums and made them public.

ONE LOGIN = ONE FELONY

Destruction of evidence (especially records that pertain to employee benefits is a whole other class of crimes)

These individuals are clearly guilty, and have no problem advertising their skills across the hacker community.

They destroyed my professional credibility with disinformation writing posting ridiculous website entries that present my professional certifications as a practicing therapist to make them appear as if I was the patient not the provider.

65 "people" impersonating me on social media platforms?

My friends, sister, brothers, my mother, and even "Agent Daddy" became targets as well.

I started this site hoping for a do-over.  My name is ELyssa. ELyssaD™ and, for he record I've never done midget porn!

Just me,

e
@ELyssaD

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Hands Clean - ELyssa Durant © 2012

"Hands Clean"

If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this

You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You're a kind of my protégé and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I've more than honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cause you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

ELyssa Durant © 2012 || All Rights Reserved ELyssaD™
DailyDDoSe™ @ELyssaD™
http://elyssadurant.com
http://powersthatbeat.com
http://autismaid.org

UR - ELyssa Durant © 2012

"UR"

burn the books they've got too many names and psychosis
all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house
suits in the living room
do you realize guys I was born in 1974
we've got someone here to explain your publishing
we know how much you love to be in front of audiences
hopeful you are
schoolbound you are
naive you are
driven you are
take a trip to new york with your guardian
and your fake identification
when they said "is there something anything
you'd like to know young lady?"
you said "yes I'd like to know what kind of people
i'll be dealing with"
precocious you are
headstrong you are
terrified you are
ahead of your time you are
don't mind our staring but
we're surprised you're not in a far-gone asylum
we're surprised you didn't crack up
lord knows that we would've
we would've liked to have been there
but you keep pushing us away
resilient you are
big time you are
ruthless you are
precious you are

ELyssa Durant © 2012 || All Rights Reserved ELyssaD™
DailyDDoSe™ @ELyssaD™
http://elyssadurant.com
http://powersthatbeat.com
http://autismaid.org

Monday, November 12, 2012

Sometimes it's a bitch... ELyssaD™ © 2012

"Sometimes It's A Bitch"

Well, I've run through rainbows
And castles of candy
I've cried a river of tears
From the pain

I try to dance with
What life has to hand me
My partner's been pleasure
My partner's been pain

There are days
When I swear I could
Fly like an eagle
And dark desperate hours
That nobody sees

My arms stretched triumphant
On top of the mountain
My head in my hands
Down on my knees

Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind
And sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses
And sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze

I've reached in darkness
And come out with treasure
I've laid down with love
And I woke up with lies

What's it all worth
Only the heart can measure
It's not what's in the mirror
But what's left inside

Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind
And sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses
And sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze

You gotta take it as it comes
Sometimes it don't come easy

I've run through rainbows
And castles of candy
And I've cried a river of tears
From the pain

I tried to dance with
What life had to hand me
And if I could
I'd do it all over again

Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind
And sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses
And sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze

Sometimes the picture
Just ain't what it seems
You get what you want
But it's not what you need
Sometimes it's a bitch
Sometimes it's a breeze

Well it's a breeze
It's a breeze, it's a breeze

ELyssa Durant © 2012 || DailyDDoSe™ by @ELyssaD™

Monday, October 1, 2012

Cleaning out my Closet || Dedicated to Karen #CON

"Cleanin Out My Closet" by Eminem

Where's my snare?
I have no snare in my headphones - there you go
Yeah... yo, yo

Have you ever been hated or discriminated against?
I have; I've been protested and demonstrated against
Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind of the motherfucking kid that's behind
All this commotion emotions run deep as ocean's exploding
Tempers flaring from parents just blow 'em off and keep going
Not taking nothing from no one give 'em hell long as I'm breathing
Keep kicking ass in the morning and taking names in the evening
Leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now; I bet ya probably sick of me now ain't you momma?
I'm a make you look so ridiculous now

I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet

Ha! I got some skeletons in my closet
And I don't know if no one knows it
So before they thrown me inside my coffin and close it
I'm a expose it; I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunch
Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't on second thought I just fucking wished he would die
I look at Hailie, and I couldn't picture leaving her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I'd try
To make it work with her at least for Hailie's sake
I maybe made some mistakes
But I'm only human, but I'm man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cause I'da killed him; shit I would've shot Kim and him both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome y'all to "The Eminem Show"

I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet

Now I would never diss my own momma just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissing
But put yourself in my position; just try to envision
Witnessing your momma popping prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitching that someone's always going through her purse and shit's missing
Going through public housing systems, victim of Munchhausen's Syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
'Til I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya stomach
Doesn't it? Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me Ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me Ma?
But guess what? You're getting older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growing up so quick he's gonna know that your phony
And Hailie's getting so big now; you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her - she won't even be at your funeral!
See what hurts me the most is you won't admit you was wrong
Bitch do your song - keep telling yourself that you was a mom!
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish bitch; I hope you fucking burn in hell for this shit
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I am dead - dead to you as can be!

I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet

I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet

Wake Me Up When September Ends - BIG SMILES!!!

"Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Echo, echo, echo...

P1252

I've seen this before. See for yourself!

#ONE might think SOmeone is impersonating my site (confirmed) OR perhaps even cloning my cell.

Stranger things HAVE happened.

Where shall I begin?

Friday, September 14, 2012

PRESS RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

PRESS RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Campaign Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

September 14, 2012

STATEMENT FROM  AutismAid™

Our thoughts and prayers go out to Steve and Aric's Family. 

AutismAid's Race Across America and national Introduction has been postponed until further notice.

On behalf of the AutismAid family, we wish to express our deepest sympathies and heartfelt regrets for this unexpected tragic loss of life.

Aware to Care... Aware to Share



Tim Welsh, Zidlow Marx, and Elyssa Durant and the AutismAid Family

AutismAid™

 

Statement from Steve Knowlton:

"We lost an incredible Friend Aric True and it has hit deeply and I will be speaking at his funeral and a Pall-bearer on Friday at Hosanna Lutheran Church 11:00 in Mankato MN I hope as many as possible will attend. 
Saturday is his burial so for now the "Run" is postponed. I want to be here and help and come to closure with this tragedy, I will run though, definitely have the record by May, for now this is my priority."

Steve

Steve Knowlton World Record Run for Autism and Aspergers

BACKGROUND INFORMATION ABOUT THE RACE:  AutismAid "Beyond The Limits Campaign"

AutismAid to launch "Beyond The Limits Campaign" to support individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder Autism And Aspergers World Record Run

Press Release Steve Knowlton Guinness World Record Run

 Catlin, IL: AutismAid is proud to support ultra-marathoner Steve Knowlton. Steve has committed to help us introduce a message of service support equity for those individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder from coast to coast as he runs to break the Guinness World Record this fall. The journey, which we are calling our "Beyond the Limits" Campaign will consist of Steve running from San Francisco to New York in 45 days commencing on September 1st. 

"Last year, with inner determination and help from God, I ran Solo 3,717 miles across America,from Seattle to Key Largo. This fall I plan on breaking a 32-year-old World Record set in 1980 by Frank Giannino who averaged 67 miles a day for 46 days and 8 hours running across America. I will set the New World Record by averaging over 70 miles a day for 45 days... This September, I will begin my Record Run starting in San Francisco, California and head through Nevada, Utah, Wyoming, Nebraska, South Dakota, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania and finishing in New York City, New York for a total of 3,100 miles." - Steve Knowlton 

We want to support Steve in every way that we can and we are so very grateful for his commitment and sacrifice. We are in the process of looking for sponsors as well as in-kind donations to help Steve with his journey. Our growing organization welcomes contact from all members of the community as we address the service needs of individuals on the spectrum through our partner Non Profit groups. 

About AutismAid: AutismAid is a National Consortium that will change the way Local Autism Service Non Profits Raise Donations, Collaborate, and Operate. Our mission is to raise funds, confidence, and community action levels. AutismAid For more information contact Executive Director Tim Welsh tim@autismaid.org or Creative Director Zidlow Marx zidlow@autismaid.org

3,100 miles San Francisco to New York Launching this September 15th 2012 Steve Knowlton will smash 32 year old ultra marathon record for AutismAid AutismAid Steven Knowlton

AutismAid Kickoff Campaign


 PLEASE VISIT OUT SITE FOR MORE INFORMATION....

 AutismAid™

 

 

 

From an "Undisclosed Location" 

Just me,

e

Our thoughts and prayers go out to Steve and Aric's Family.

AutismAid's Race Across America and national Introduction has been postponed until further notice.

On behalf of the AutismAid family, we wish to express our deepest sympathies and heartfelt regrets for this unexpected tragic loss of life.

Respectfully yours,

Tim Welsh, Zidlow Marx, Elyssa Durant and the entire AutismAid Family.
AutismAid.org

"Aware to care, aware to share."

PRESS RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Campaign Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

September 14, 2012

STATEMENT FROM  AutismAid™

Our thoughts and prayers go out to Steve and Aric's Family. 

AutismAid's Race Across America and national Introduction has been postponed until further notice.

On behalf of the AutismAid family, we wish to express our deepest sympathies and heartfelt regrets for this unexpected tragic loss of life.

Aware to Care... Aware to Share
Tim Welsh, Zidlow Marx, and Elyssa Durant and the AutismAid Family
AutismAid™


 

Statement from Steve Knowlton:

"We lost an incredible Friend Aric True and it has hit deeply and I will be speaking at his funeral and a Pall-bearer on Friday at Hosanna Lutheran Church 11:00 in Mankato MN I hope as many as possible will attend. 
Saturday is his burial so for now the "Run" is postponed. I want to be here and help and come to closure with this tragedy, I will run though, definitely have the record by May, for now this is my priority."

Steve
Steve Knowlton World Record Run for Autism and Aspergers


BACKGROUND INFORMATION ABOUT THE RACE:  AutismAid "Beyond The Limits Campaign"

AutismAid to launch "Beyond The Limits Campaign" to support individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder Autism And Aspergers World Record Run

Press Release Steve Knowlton Guinness World Record Run

 Catlin, IL: AutismAid is proud to support ultra-marathoner Steve Knowlton. Steve has committed to help us introduce a message of service support equity for those individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder from coast to coast as he runs to break the Guinness World Record this fall. The journey, which we are calling our "Beyond the Limits" Campaign will consist of Steve running from San Francisco to New York in 45 days commencing on September 1st. 

"Last year, with inner determination and help from God, I ran Solo 3,717 miles across America,from Seattle to Key Largo. This fall I plan on breaking a 32-year-old World Record set in 1980 by Frank Giannino who averaged 67 miles a day for 46 days and 8 hours running across America. I will set the New World Record by averaging over 70 miles a day for 45 days... This September, I will begin my Record Run starting in San Francisco, California and head through Nevada, Utah, Wyoming, Nebraska, South Dakota, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania and finishing in New York City, New York for a total of 3,100 miles." - Steve Knowlton 

We want to support Steve in every way that we can and we are so very grateful for his commitment and sacrifice. We are in the process of looking for sponsors as well as in-kind donations to help Steve with his journey. Our growing organization welcomes contact from all members of the community as we address the service needs of individuals on the spectrum through our partner Non Profit groups. 



About AutismAid: AutismAid is a National Consortium that will change the way Local Autism Service Non Profits Raise Donations, Collaborate, and Operate. Our mission is to raise funds, confidence, and community action levels. AutismAid For more information contact Executive Director Tim Welsh tim@autismaid.org or Creative Director Zidlow Marx zidlow@autismaid.org


3,100 miles San Francisco to New York Launching this September 15th 2012 Steve Knowlton will smash 32 year old ultra marathon record for AutismAid AutismAid Steven Knowlton

AutismAid Kickoff Campaign


 PLEASE VISIT OUT SITE FOR MORE INFORMATION....

 AutismAid™

 

 

 

From an "Undisclosed Location" 

Just me,

e

ELyssa Durant © 2012 || All Rights Reserved || DailyDDoSe™ || @ELyssaD™

PRESS RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE: AutismAid Kickoff Campaign Postponed due to Tragic Death within the Autism Community

September 14, 2012

STATEMENT FROM  AutismAid™

Our thoughts and prayers go out to Steve and Aric's Family. 

AutismAid's Race Across America and national Introduction has been postponed until further notice.

On behalf of the AutismAid family, we wish to express our deepest sympathies and heartfelt regrets for this unexpected tragic loss of life.

Aware to Care... Aware to Share



Tim Welsh, Zidlow Marx, and Elyssa Durant and the AutismAid Family

AutismAid™


 

Statement from Steve Knowlton:

"We lost an incredible Friend Aric True and it has hit deeply and I will be speaking at his funeral and a Pall-bearer on Friday at Hosanna Lutheran Church 11:00 in Mankato MN I hope as many as possible will attend. 
Saturday is his burial so for now the "Run" is postponed. I want to be here and help and come to closure with this tragedy, I will run though, definitely have the record by May, for now this is my priority."

Steve
Steve Knowlton World Record Run for Autism and Aspergers


BACKGROUND INFORMATION ABOUT THE RACE:  AutismAid "Beyond The Limits Campaign"

AutismAid to launch "Beyond The Limits Campaign" to support individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder Autism And Aspergers World Record Run

Press Release Steve Knowlton Guinness World Record Run

 Catlin, IL: AutismAid is proud to support ultra-marathoner Steve Knowlton. Steve has committed to help us introduce a message of service support equity for those individuals impacted by Autism Spectrum Disorder from coast to coast as he runs to break the Guinness World Record this fall. The journey, which we are calling our "Beyond the Limits" Campaign will consist of Steve running from San Francisco to New York in 45 days commencing on September 1st. 

"Last year, with inner determination and help from God, I ran Solo 3,717 miles across America,from Seattle to Key Largo. This fall I plan on breaking a 32-year-old World Record set in 1980 by Frank Giannino who averaged 67 miles a day for 46 days and 8 hours running across America. I will set the New World Record by averaging over 70 miles a day for 45 days... This September, I will begin my Record Run starting in San Francisco, California and head through Nevada, Utah, Wyoming, Nebraska, South Dakota, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania and finishing in New York City, New York for a total of 3,100 miles." - Steve Knowlton 

We want to support Steve in every way that we can and we are so very grateful for his commitment and sacrifice. We are in the process of looking for sponsors as well as in-kind donations to help Steve with his journey. Our growing organization welcomes contact from all members of the community as we address the service needs of individuals on the spectrum through our partner Non Profit groups. 



About AutismAid: AutismAid is a National Consortium that will change the way Local Autism Service Non Profits Raise Donations, Collaborate, and Operate. Our mission is to raise funds, confidence, and community action levels. AutismAid For more information contact Executive Director Tim Welsh tim@autismaid.org or Creative Director Zidlow Marx zidlow@autismaid.org


3,100 miles San Francisco to New York Launching this September 15th 2012 Steve Knowlton will smash 32 year old ultra marathon record for AutismAid AutismAid Steven Knowlton

AutismAid Kickoff Campaign


 PLEASE VISIT OUT SITE FOR MORE INFORMATION....

 AutismAid™

 

 

 

From an "Undisclosed Location" 

Just me,

e

ELyssa Durant © 2012 || All Rights Reserved || DailyDDoSe™ || @ELyssaD™

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Embracing my life with Aspergers

For me, learning I had Aspergers was a huge relief. An "OMG" moment... you mean there is a name for it?

I have always been different.

I find the ordinary world ridden with useless scents, sounds, noise, and people.

People that lie, manipulate and hate.

Manipulative people are a mystery to me. Why not just ask for what you need?

I have always been one to give people what they need. Not necessarily what they want, but what the need.

People don't need that loud blaring music or strong scented perfume.  All it does is provide a distraction. One I can live with out.

When asked questions, I tell people the truth unaware that the truth is not what they want to hear. Kinda like, "do these pants make my ass look fat?" my reply might be, "no your ass makes your ass look fat."

Not exactly what people want to hear, huh?

I notice other behaviors and "oddities" that can now be attributed to Aspergers... not liking to be hugged by strangers; difficulty dancing with people other than myself.. I want to ask, "what do I do with my hands?"

I still get lost in my own head, my own home, my own neighborhood... but I'm finding my way... I may have gotten here a little later than most, but hopefully points are given for starting late and finishing strong.

My life with Aspergers is just beginning... I have much to do...

For now, that's all.

Just me,

e
@ELyssaD™

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